“Who is Murphy and why does he suck?”
I asked my counselor jokingly. I was trying to lighten the mood in a somewhat heavy conversation. I had a few deaths in my family, a friend from high school passed away unexpectedly, my brother was in a car accident, and my husband had just left a pretty gnarly job. Things were hard. They were really hard. We laughed about the Murphy’s Law joke- “Anything that can go wrong will go wrong”- and she said something I honestly will never forget:
“You don’t get the gold unless you go through the fire.”
I know this was a Bible reference. I’ve heard it time and time again, but this time it stuck. Everything felt like it was going wrong. I know you have been there too. You cannot seem to catch your breath and once you do, something else happens. It’s life. Life is messy and hard. It is unplanned and it is wild.
It’s been a year and I can tell you life has not gotten boring. It still throws me curve balls, but with every trial, with every bit of suffering, with every sting of sadness I see God clearly. I see Him move in prayers, I hear Him speak in the quiet, and I promised myself a long time ago that I would not begrudge God for this light and momentary affliction. Though sometimes it seems anything but “light and for a moment”, I know that it does not stand a chance in the light of His glory. I’ve seen Him use every bit. I have seen a change in my family. Hearts that were once far off from Jesus now cling to His truths. My brother who was once wrestling addictions in now in recovery. My husband eventually found a job that brings him a joy that was once lost. My heart knows pain, but now it also knows how to better empathize with others. There has been healing and restoration.
So yes, things get hard. They will never not be hard. When it rains it pours. But your relationship with Jesus is your traction in the trials. Your time spent in His word silences all the other noise. Keep going. Keep looking up. And keep leaning in. You will come out of this wiser, stronger, and your faith will be as pure gold.
“…even though you have to put up with every kind of aggravation in the meantime. Pure gold put in the fire comes out of it proved pure; genuine faith put through this suffering comes out proved genuine. When Jesus wraps this all up, it’s your faith, not your gold, that God will have on display as evidence of his victory.” 1 Peter 6:7 (MSG)